Wednesday, October 8, 2008

There Is No Day (cont)

No day better to make a change
To shed an identity
To take up the mantel of a new person.
To colour over the old lies
To be my own person.

You think you know me, but you know nothing of what I have become
You may have known me, but I am a stranger to you now.
For I have seen the future and I know what lies ahead
I am... a living reminder of folly.




I'm not really sure how this came up.  It just did.  I suppose it has something to do with typical teenage angst.  That was certainly experienced last night.  I very strongly dislike having to tell people that something is wrong in my life.  It takes away from my ability to care for myself.  I hate letting people take care of me; hate being weak.
Its a problem, but I feel like it takes away from my inner strength.  
But when life's problems come crashing down around you... there's not much you can do, but sit and cry.
I had a heart-to-heart with a couple people last night.  They tried to make me feel better, tried to fix my problems.  But I do not want to be fixed.

I dislike how people think that I will come home from college the same person who left.  I cannot ever be that person again, no matter how much I may or may not want to.  I've left that person behind in the dust.  

The end.

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