I have lost what I deemed valuable. Wouldn't you feel despaired if you had too?
Everyone goes through loss in their lives.
Loss of childhood, loss of parents, loss of innocence, loss of their partner. Loss. While it makes us stronger as people, it sure as hell hurts in the moment. And it is getting over that moment that is the hardest part. It is a tiresome trek. A trek without a seeming end in sight.
There's building back up of walls. A sense of growing cold and distant from those who care. They don't understand why you feel so vulnerable. and yet, you do. and you don't know how to stop it.
Because all you want to do is let them in again. But at the same time, you don't trust them not to break you into a thousand tiny pieces, sinking into the floor.
